Friday, September 22, 2006
I feel so demoralised... i dun feel like myself... maybe my EQ is dropping at an exponential rate... sighz... so much readings for corp rep...
baby looney tunes ;
12:16 AM
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
i feel so weird nowadays.. no mood to do anything... sighz... i dunno is i too stressed or wat.. but projects havn't even start dunno i stress with wat...
i really dunno wats wrong with me... sometimes i read textbook until i give up... until then i wanna cry to let out my feelings... yet i cant cry... i seem to grow much stronger now... i used to be so weak last time.. evrytime i have any problems i always cry... yet now its like suppressing my feelings within myself... i need to do something to let out my feelings... yet i really dunno wat to do... i have some frens willing to lend a listening ear... yet i dun even noe wats wrong with me... dun ask me wats wrong with me too.. cos i dunno wats wrong also... and i always show myself as a strong ger... i dun want anyone to see my vulnerable side... hmmm... somehow like most people i also have my soft side...
hmm... i really need to get my mood back.. dunno where it went to... haiz... i used to go kickboxing in the past to let out my stress or watever mood i have... but now... i cant cos wanna save money and my darling dun like me to go kickboxing... today i was feeling so moodless that i thot of all the things i could probably do to regain my mood... hmm... eat a good lunch? buy something i like? go play arcade? go out enjoy myself?go jogging? haiz... but i dun think my mood will come back.. then i though back... last time really kickboxing allows me to relieve all my thoughts and feelings... suddenly i have an urge to go kickboxing... but how lei... ?? conflicting thoughts... scarly go liao my mood still so bad then how... dunno if wat works in the past work now also...
*moodless* me.......................
baby looney tunes ;
9:05 PM