Sunday, August 06, 2006
anyway last blog b4 i sleep... after today it makes me wanna be wif kel even more... i love him even more and will want to be on the path he is on... this road may be tough to walk... but i will walk it together wif him.... i noe he will walk it together wif me too... and i trust that we can eventually reach our destination.. although it may take very long... well good things dun come easy....
baby looney tunes ;
12:28 AM
Saturday, August 05, 2006
hmmm.... so angry just now before and after the dinner... now hate my kor la... he very bad... always tink he right ah... provoke me .... kaoz.... he obviously will side with wan ling say is he ask wan ling to ask me to go... he nvr think of other people feeling one
think of how he will feel if he is in my shoes... surely he wun care... he so selfish tink of himself only... juz becos mummy dun like he also dun like... dun have own thinking... no life...
anyway after dinner my father so unreasonable... not my wrong ask me say sorry... kaoz... all side with wan ling... i noe wan ling is the daughter-in-law so daughter in law more important than daughter right.... welll... if he wants us not to be in cold war... he can jolly well ask wan ling to say sorry... y should i be the one... so angry wif him... nvr understand me...keep on preaching me... kaoz... i want u to stay away even more... at least mum better understand me... let me cool down....
anyway i ok le... one note also to people who read my blog... if u are so smart 1st impression can noe a person from head to toe from inside out then u guys proz liao.... i tink u guys can either be geniuses or fortune tellers... and u guys no need work wan... just make frens wif very generous peopl u guys will survive right~!!! and wats 1st impression.... to me it is not seeing a person from far and from hear say but rather from a meeting wif them and really toking to each other... i believe wan ling u nvr go out with kel b4.. in gv also nvr tok b4... NO 1ST IMPRESSION to me... think about it ba... last time kel always ask me to bring u n kor out together... even on his birthday he wanna go out and eat and say ask u 2 along... he being very nice yet it is u guys not being very nice... so wat having so high qualifications and ur attitude already so bad... study monash so wat... next time u come out to work give attitude also got problem...
haiz... so theory is...
-to parents, in-laws are always most important...
-1st impression is not hearsay and seeing from far
-people around me only noe how to be very concerned abt my future without thinking how i feel in the process... i may be extremely unhappy and sad... they dun care so long as outcome is wat they want... bleahz...
-I want to live a life i live for myself and not others.... i want to make my own choice and that is not wat parents say as got wings and can fly but rather tat i have grown up...
baby looney tunes ;
11:54 PM
feel so pissed off so angry and mad at SOMEONE... SPOIL MY DAY SPOIL MY MOOD... KAOZ... I ALREADY SAID I DUN WANT TO GO I DUN WANT TO GO.... DUN UNDERSTAND ENGLISH MEH... IT IS ME.. NOT KEL WHO MAKE THE DECISION...KEL LET ME GO TO THE DINNER NOT DUN LET...SO DUN PUCH THE BLAME TO HIM~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ANGRY!!!!!
OK... THE PROBLEM IS LIKE THAT YEST I HAPPILY go buy click tixkets for today 5pm session... i buy with vouchers so dun expect tat there will be a refund... then at night then i noe that today is wanling's mum birthday.... and going to eat at a restaurant for dinner... but i already got tix le... and everything is already planned... i told my mum i dun want to go... and everyone in my family noe tat i dun want to go le last night... i feel paiseh also.. so i ask my mum can change to eat morning or eat on sunday wan a not... my mum dun want... ok fine then juz tat i dun go lor... next time then treat them la...
BUT wan ling insisted i go... today keep msging me... say i dun go dun give face blah blah... but i really dun wanna go... REASON BEING: i want to spend the week nicely wif kel wan cos on tues is our 2nd year aniversary ma... then kel working on tues and wed... so obviously i wanna spend the day with kel... somemore tix buy liao cannot refund...
So wat happen??? i telephone wanling tell her i dun wanna go le... and she keep on saying is it kel who dun wanna me to go... if so tell him u want to go ma... blah blah... she dunno my feelings lei... i was crying when i was toking to her already... never consider my feelings... i want to say again
I DUN WANT TO GO!!!
FORCE ME TO GO THERE THEN I SHOW FACE U HAPPY I NOT HAPPY GOOD AH~!!!
THEN KEL DUN WANNA SEE ME CRY HE TOOK THE PHONE AND SAY I WILL GO... AND TELL ME GO HOME.. TIX NVR MIND...
I M SO PISSED OFF WITH HER.... PLS LA... NEXT TIME B4 U DO ANYTHING PLS PLS PLS PUT URSELF INTO OTHER SHOES...
I MSG HER SAY I HATE HER...
SO NOW SHE CRYING ALSO...
CAN I ASK WHO SPOIL MY DAY FIRST~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
KAOZ... NOW WAT !!! I GO HOME CRIED AND CRIED... SPOIL MY DAY SPOIL MY MOOD... KEL ALSO UNHAPPY HE THINKS EVERYONE BLAME HIM BUT HE NVR DO ANYTHING TO HIM... FOR GOODNESS SAKE... WHEN DID I SAY IS KEL DUN LET ME GO... DONT ASSUME U NOE EVERYTHING WHEN U DONT~!!!
U NOE WAT FOR SOME TIME I WAS CRYING IN ORCHARD AND TODAY IS SAT...
AND WAT... MY KOR MSG ME SAYING I DUN GO THEN DUN GO LA... KAOZ AFTER U SPOIL EVERYONE'S MOOD U TELL ME THIS KIND OF THINGS... FIRST U INSISTED I GO... THEN WAT U SAY I DUN GO DUN GO... WANLING CRYING SO WAT I M ALSO CRYING... MY MOOD SPOIL AND NOW KEL ALSO UNHAPPY HE SAY NEXT TIME HE LET ME DO MY OWN THINGS... DUN BOTHER ME ANYMORE SINCE EVERYTIME I GOT PROBLEM EVERY1 BLAME HIM...
KAOZ.. WANLING IF U EVER READ MY BLOG... I NOE U DO... PLS THINK WAT U HAVE DONE... KOR ASK ME DUN BLAME U BUT I CANT... SORRY... IF U R IN MY SHOES.. AND KOR TELL U TAT HOW WOULD U FEEL... BTW KEL NVR OFFEND KOR LOR... KOR GIVE THIS KIND ATTITUDE... KAOZ... I DUN WANNA TOK TO U GUYS AGAIN...
baby looney tunes ;
4:55 PM